One thing I love about this blog is there there are only four of you who might ever read it. It's freeing. I can write whatever I like.

When things were dark in my first marriage I felt such  pressure to keep everything in and not to let anyone know what was going on. It was as if, others knew, then I would have to admit to myself that I was being abused. Admitting it myself was even harder that enduring the abuse. Admitting that I allowed myself to become a victim-I never thought I could be that type of person.

 One of the many things I took away from that time period was the keeping things in. I no longer leap into the fray, expose myself to people I don't already have a trusting relationship with. I've learned not to put myself out there. My close friends could tell you that I used to be this loudish, awkwardly hilarious, ready for an adventure type of woman. Now, I sit at home and everything has to be planned.

I would like to change that.

That's going to be my goal for 2012. I want to open myself up to people and experiences again. I think it's important to teach this baby to be fearless in the face of life. If you don't try, how will you ever live?

So that is my goal. The baby should be here in May and I will have three month of FMLA. Instead of sitting at home every day with baby I'm MAKING a choice to get out there and DO.

and baby makes 3...errr...5!

Baby incubating is coming along just fine. I'm about to enter week 15 which is exciting because it means we are out of the first trimester and our danger of miscarriage is much, much less. Something I am very happy about considering my history.

While my belly is growing, lots of the less than pleasant symptoms of pregnancy are fading. I actually got to eat, and keep down all of our Thanksgivinging feast. We had 10 people for dinner, used two tables pushed together and there was entirely too much food.

So much that our fridge is still stocked to the brim six day's later.

Anyone for leftovers?

While the Aunties were in town we visited Babies R Us and started a registry for Mini H-R. My BIL, who is now a seasoned parent took a look at the list and let me know what we needed to add/nix. If the hub and I had our way we'd be buying 90% of baby stuff used. The family on the other hand... *shock* USED?!?!

 They think we're crazy. We think it's just stuff and we'd rather help re-use and be financially responsible.

Have I mentioned hub and I aren't a fan of stuff?

Mini H-R should be here around May 2012 and I think it's pretty neat how many people are already rooting for this little one. It gives me warm fuzzies to know that if anything ever happens to me, this wee one will be well loved by people I care deeply about.

I scored...then slept.

Love book sales.!!!

I came across two  of my favorite books growing up, Homecoming and Dicey's Song both were signed and inscribed by the author, Cynthia Voigt in 1983. Dicey's Song was awarded the Newbery Medal, 1983.

Both books are in excellent condition and are hardbacks and the best bit? I only paid $3.00 for both books.

Bliss!

 I hope my spawn loves books as much as I do.

http://cynthiavoigt.com/index.php

It's Friday

A long, cold, snowy day stretches in front of me and (unsurprisingly) all I want to do is nap. Curl up beneath my down comforter and snooze the hours away.

Part of it is pregnancy, part is that I hate being cold and the rest...is seasonal affective disorder. Which is lame. Especially since I'm banned from all prescribed substances that might help.

It's going to be a busy weekend  at Casa by the Road.

Friday- We are celebrating an early birthday tonight for my niece who will turn two after her mom returns to Afghanistan which happens on Sunday. Lil Bit pulled an early leave slip and has spent the last two weeks bonding with her baby and husband and eating at all of her fav. food spots). It's going to be very difficult and emotional for all of us when she gets back on that plane. We won't see her again for another 9 months.


Saturday-  Library Book Sale! Happens twice a year and should be considered a holiday. Rooms and rooms FULL of books! Books for sale at a very reasonable price. On Sunday everything is 50% off. *swoon* Then it's off to a pre-natal swim class where my ass will be floated to me and then a big family dinner to say goodbye to Lil Bit.

Sunday - Seeing Lil Bit off at the airport at 6 a.m., making plans with my little, baking a plum cake and then a massive nap to make up for skipping Fri/Sat's naps. Also picking out new carpet for the nursery and our bedroom.

 I sure do live a boring life.

Holy Monkeys!

It's been a month and ...10 days between postings! Beg pardon readers, I've been a bit preoccupied between my practicum project and this little Fruterus.

Holy Monkeys! I was going to share a real life photo but I can't without giving myself nightmares.

So generic stock it is.



Not my belly-actually a stunt belly because look at those nails! But I do have the piercing hole so close enough



Yup, there's going to be spawn. I'm still in my first trimester and who ever coined the phrase "pregnancy is a miracle" deserves to be taken out back and beaten. It is UNCOMFORTABLE. I'll try not to gross anyone out with details but my body has been taken over by Fruterus who is currently the size of a raspberry... and has a tail.

Practicum is going well (when I have the energy to show up) I'm working with a super specialized group of teen males. I give then homework and we role play...not exactly high up on the "OMGAZZZUM!" list of things teenage boys want to do, but since they are a captive audience *lol* and I promised cookies they fall in line without too much trouble.

 So basically this last month I slept, went to work, came home at lunch and slept, went to my practicum and come back home and... slept. It's a yawn inducing cycle that should improve by Thanksgiving.

Back to school I go...

 So I applied to a program at my local University to obtain an Occupational Endorsement Certificate in Children's Behavioral Health and was accepted. While I already hold a BA I've been feeling like my brain has powered off. The certificate should come in handy in my job field and I'm looking at 120 practicum hours this semester. Brain boost!

 Class starts tonight- bonus is that this one is online. Attending in my jammies is a plus.





Just informed I am not hired for either position.